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apologies

I apologize for being quite the opposite of interesting.
I apologize for being terrible at finding conversation starters, let alone holding at least one lengthy conversation.
I apologize for not having exciting stories to tell.
I apologize for many other things I don't have the time to list.
All of me
Please take all of me
'Cause you are all I see
Everything to me

When you're gone, I am lost
I wanna be forgiven, but I am not
And if I hurt your feelings, I will stop
So please, don't turn away from me
And have a little faith now

'Cause baby, you were there
You always seemed to care for me
And this is where I belong
I never was aware
And suddenly it came to be

And this is what I've become
Opened up my eyes
And made me realize
That you would take all of me

Please take all of me, yeah
'Cause you are all I see
My blue eyed ocean breeze

When it all falls apart
I wanna live forever, don't we all?
It's not like we don't ever get along
So please don't turn away from me
And have a little faith now

'Cause baby, you were there
You always seemed to care for me
And this is where I belong
I never was aware
And suddenly it came to be

And this is what I've become
Opened up my eyes
And made me realize
That you would take all of me

Miss you all the time
Underneath a stormy sky
You take away the rain
And leave me with a sunny day
Stay here by your side
And never let you go now

'Cause baby, you were there
You always seemed to care for me
And this is where I belong
I never was aware
And suddenly it came to be

And this is what I've become
Opened up my eyes
And made me realize
That you would take all of me

Please take all of me, yeah
"Cause you are all I see
Everything to me

Oct. 24th, 2008

You used to be sincere.

Just another cloudy day...

It's on days like these that I want to just get a gallon of ice cream, sit down with some blankets and a pillow, and watch movies that, in the end, remind me of how alone I feel.
I know that's just me being blah, and selfish considering there are people who are worse off than I am.

Maybe it is just the weather.
Maybe Im not as strong as I make myself out to be.
Who knows.

These times come and pass.
Whatever
It looks like another sleepless night is in store.
I just can't get my mind to stop racing.
It starts in the nooks and crannies in my head, then eventually bursts into rapid thought after thought.
Still I close my eyes and try to let exhaustion take me into slumber.
It works after a while...a long while.



Benadryl will solve this problem....

3:07 a.m.
damn it.

goodnight.
A whole lot of work, all the time blegh. I suppose its okay, it keeps my mind occupied. Still hasn't rained yet... fucking overcast bullshit. Still can't get Sevendust burned which is getting annoying.

Found out tonight some chick I can't remember has some sort of crush on me. She asked me to take her home after Chili's tonight. I can't explain how awkward that was. I didn't even get a chance to tell her I'm not single...
She essentially asked me to "look her up and give her a call sometime." Yeah like that will ever happen. I just nodded my head and went to Jimmy's.

Other things though just never seem to correct themselves. Feeling apprehensive about some things.

Been giving some consideration to learning the drums at the request of Jimmy. It also might give me something else to take up some time. I'll talk to my brother about it, maybe he'll lend me his set who knows.

Another update, another day.
Hmmm it seems you've moved on quite easily. You'll be missed I'm sure, but will we be?

Senseless

Why do I even bother?

Most attempts are unresponsive.

So why continue to try?

......Sometimes I wonder.

Technical Knockout

My day consists of me getting up at around 10...cant sleep in any longer than that for some reason. Turning my computer on, checking teh forums, eating breakfast, and then kicking ass in Halo 2. Which I am decent at. Other than that I might go for bike rides and such.

I re-did my room. My bed is now suspended in the air, which is totally badass and saves bunches of room. My computer desk is right underneath it making it a cozy little spot to chill and talk to people on teh interwebz. My tv/entertainment center is in my closet. Looking for love seat so I can chill and play some Xbox in my room or to just watch movies.

Now that i have the extra space in my room i can start working out again. Which is cool because my
brother is studying to become a personal trainer so he hooked me up with a work out schedule. Hanging my 70 lb. heavy bag again, but hope to upgrade to at least 100lbs soon. Anywho, thats pretty much whats up lately. Peace.